has taken its toll on me
and she's said goodbye
too many times before
her heart is breaking
in front of me
but i have no choice
i won't say goodbye any more.
hazza my dear readers. 
guess what i got me last weekend? a boyfriend. i know, right?
so, i was at skyfire, woo! oh. wait.
so last friday i was in maths and my throat started hurting like an absolute arse and i was like dayum. and then by the end of maths, my nose was running, i had a headache and my throat was not allowing me to speak without a large degree of pain. mw was staying over that night, and we were staying after school coz we had some house thing on and we were gonna do homework first, and so we did and then she came back to mine. you know what i discovered? my mattress is too big for my bedframe (i've had it like three years) and is on a TILT. so every time i try to sleep on one edge of my bed i roll back down to the other. odd. i laughed.
anyway, i had the most godawful night's sleep imaginable. haha mw woke up in the middle of the night and she sits up and yells out 'WHERE AM I?!?' and then i was like and then she's like oh, its ok, i thought i was at carly's house. and then she fell back to sleep and had no recollection the next day. its quite hilarious.
anyway, the next day my head was killing me and i felt like throwing up, my nose wouldnt stop running and my throat was dying but it was SKYFIRE. i couldnt miss out on SKYFIRE! so i had to pretend i felt fine, went to tennis, picked up nw and on the way to mw's, got incredibly car sick. but after throwing up, all g.
sat on mw's couch, watched she and nw play cards, slept, felt better.
got to skyfire. friends on other side of lake.
went over other side of lake. sat down for a while, left to find shb.
failed in mission, returned.
sat next to ashley 
slowly everyone starts (unknowingly apparently) moving away. soon his arm is around me and my head is on his shoulder. the fireworks start and he and i sit and talk and it feels so right.
afterwards we're hugging and acting like a couple and soon enough he asks me out: we're making it official
it was the most amazing night of my life. he was so warm and i felt so safe against him.
i dont want him to ever leave me.
ever.
if anything like what happened with w happens with ashley i think i would collapse.
x